i like swimming

the water laps at my ankles, pulling me deeper
i will not go, i can see the depths lurking
i choose the shallows, where its safe, where I know
but somehow...
drowning... how can it be?
water above my shoulders, i raise my head to breathe
I'm standing, water at my ankles
this paradox eludes me
somehow, some way... apparently its possible
and i'm drowning...

standing upon the shore, i chose not to swim
suddenly a wave, water all around me
I can not escape! everywhere, no where...
water?!
irony abounds, and i can't seem to find the humor
but i can see pointless, futile
and this is it
as i wallow back to the shore
nothing seems possible, except the drink taking me to the brink

I hope you're winning your war
I hope you're achieving what you wanted
I hope you got what you wanted
as i walk away, not looking back
I will not wave in your direction
its pointless, so i keep moving away
and i have no plans for the future
but this, i will not be here when you want me
I'll have gone, and it'll be your own doing

I made myself a boat, for the ocean
and i found me a friend to help me,
he captures the winds and gives me direction
he shows me where to go
so here i am, floating on the water
no longer drowning, happy
I can't believe i had let myself sink away like i did
no longer will i drift with the currents
nor will i let you be my guide
you had me wallowing in the shallows,
you had me stuck in the sand

"i hope this is what you wanted...
cause this is what you're getting"


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I will not accept deadwood, it wastes my time. All it is good for is the fire, burn it, use it, get rid of it. I will not let it drag me down. Don't call me friend and not expect friendship. Don't ask my opinion just to waste away time. I will tear you down. I have no patience for the foolish, they prove themselves true enough. Wisdom comes through understanding that we are here for a reason, and if you aren't here to help me i will make you wish you were.