as in trains?

you said it would be different as i fell again to the floor
you said i wouldn't feel a thing this time
as you plunged that dagger in my side
blood knows no reason as it leaves me behind
I don't seem to remember signing a contract
but now i wish i had, help me i call
no one hears, not worth the effort, i just need to breathe
one, in, two, out, counting, not much use really
truth is, i'm dieing, truth is, it doesn't matter
I thought, you know
i actually had a plausible ideal that i'd have some last word
but now that the time is coming, i don't even care

there's a difference between the here and now,
sort of like the changes between channels as you pan across space
Not denying the fact of existence, just challenging it's worth
I don't need propoganda, i just need a word
a single syllable, a single moment to please my palpable mind
and as the thoughts flow in between reason and banter
bleeding seems so far away, so distant
that tunnel keeps coming, then going away
must be late for the 9.15 for Padington...

I saw then what i was missing, smack bang
maybe you'll see it too... i wrote it here
you just need to find it...